explosion into self

Forms of untidied stuckness

Open up

Into an all-consuming violent vomitus explosion

Today I was driving home and the car in front of me stopped on a busy road. The driver, an older lady, jumped out and started to throw up on the side of the road. So what are we stuck in that we need to jump out of moving vehicles to violently reject or explode? What is right about rejection and explosion?

This weekend I spent with some family. My husband was fixing things and had a lot of help. The football games were on and I felt like I was trying to please everyone. I realized half way through that I do not like where I am! Normally I would try to stay and make food or strike up conversation, maybe even freak out for some "unknown reason"… I needed to explode out of this situation. Once I realized where I was, I kindly excused myself to do what I wanted. I had this peace to do me, to read, to eat yummy things, to be in nature.

Our forms of untidied stuckness can be so consuming. Especially when we cannot see them clearly. Explode into yourselves.